We run like a river

（By Flotation Toy Warning）


　　　我在早晨八點不睡覺，像個遊魂一樣頂著昏昏的腦袋，吃
　著早餐，有誰相信我有時熬夜不睡覺有一半的原因就只是想吃
　一頓早餐？真是挺蠢的。
　　　暑假就是這麼一回事。你可以有很多計劃（我是有很多啦
　）但是你又可以偷個懶，完全放空自己，一整天做的有意義的
　事就只有睡覺，吃飯，洗澡，上廁所。看來在這暑假的一開頭
　，好像沒有什麼值得感到快樂的感覺。熱情熱情，它真的不見
　好久了。

　　　一直認為，人有情緒才能感覺到自己的存在。不解的是，
　我卻已過了一陣子接近機器人的生活。什麼都不在乎，說了話
　刺激到朋友，不在意；懶得打工，那就翹吧；當了一兩個星期
　的行屍走肉，沒差啦。反正生活是自己的，人是獨立的，我不
　在意就好，是嗎。

　　　然後就像我這幾天最常做的事一樣：回憶著從前快樂的日
　子，或是看看曾經暗戀的人的照片，然後自憐自艾地聽著這首
　Donald Pleasance，這是多麼悲情的感覺。但是卻一點也不
　難過，不期待，也不在乎，從前的那些日子。

　　　至少我的耳朵還沒壞嘛。這一刻，有美妙的聲音，我就滿
　足了。

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　Came to say how you feel today, how you feel inside
　You can't tell me that you know how it feels
　When you don't seem to feel at all
　You came here today to tell me this, you think I'm stupid?
　This is the funeral of our love
　I came here only to say goodbye

　Leonard stop the trains by any certain means
　I couldn't bear to board another
　She not me was the dealer
　With a tiny useless fucking shelter

　David pass me the wine, like you I'm "really not fine"
　Did I really mean her harm?
　I never set foot in the country

　Donald tell me why pleasance never gets me anywhere, anymore
　Was the lovely man from Mars?
　I never liked Venus at all

　This brittle house our love has stained
　I've left before and I'll leave again
　But your little blue moods drag me in
　But I know you won't be bringing me down this time
　Growing pains and empty days
　Records played and certain shades of blue remind me still of you
　But I know you won't be bringing me down this time

　You can't tell me that you know how it feels
　When you don't seem to feel at all
　This is the funeral of our love
　I came here only to say goodbye
　This is the funeral of our love
　I came here only to say goodbye
　This is the funeral of our love
　I came here only to say goodbye